Ok-I just picked up my prescription for my Metformin and Clomid. While I was there I looked through the baby section while I waited for the prescription. I bought a onesie....on clearance of course. It says "Daddy says I can't date until 25" ha ha too cute.
This month we are trying preseed as well.
Tomorrow is day 5 of my cycle which means it's the start of Clomid days 5-9. BEWARE!
Please say a prayer for us, please let it be our month.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
Fair-Weather Friend
A friend who is only a friend when circumstances are pleasant or profitable. At the first sign of trouble, these capricious, disloyal friends will drop their relationship with you.
Usually a good friend to begin with that eventually takes advantage of a true friend and does not maintain the SAME loyalty and respect. Without an explation why, a fair weather friend may abandon a friendship altogether for superficial reasons or changes in moral beliefs without a care for nurturing fair dicussion. The exception is when that person needs something, they know they can still count on an "all weather friend"
This describes to a "t" what I am experiencing from my two closest friends. I feel very betrayed, alone, and just sad. It's ok though, I knew that they wouldn't understand me working 7 days a week, and what my goals are in doing so. But I didn't exspect for it to take a turn like this. The only thing I can do is stand up for myself, stay stong, and know that all the work I am putting in now will get me where I want to be.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Day 27
Have I mentioned how much I hate this wait? I don't think I got pregnant this month, so if I didn't can we just move on? This next cycle we are going to use pre-seed (for the sake of the parentals reading I will spare the details-if your interested google it). Also we will be going trying ovulation prediction tests. For some reason even when my Dr. has confirmed ovulation the tests never work for me. But I am willing to try again. In addition, I am going to make an appointment at Dominion Fertility to see what my insurance covers.
In other news. My best friend finds out what she is having in a few weeks, I am so excited to know!
I got a part-time job at a Bridal Store on the weekends. It's a lot that I am taking on but it will be worth it when I am in my new home. This week we have a meeting with another lender to talk about the VHDA loan.
In other news. My best friend finds out what she is having in a few weeks, I am so excited to know!
I got a part-time job at a Bridal Store on the weekends. It's a lot that I am taking on but it will be worth it when I am in my new home. This week we have a meeting with another lender to talk about the VHDA loan.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
The Waiting Game
Ok-So I've started the dreaded two week wait to see if I am pregnant. I don't think this month is it, but I am excited of the possibility and starting everything again next month.
The in-laws came for a visit, it was really great for them to see our apartment. I hope by the next time they come we will either be moving to our new home, or at least further in the process. While they we here we went to the Air and Space Museum and the NRA Museum-Air and Space was interesting, NRA-Not at all.
My really close prego friend is back in the hospital her potassium is high, her blood pressure is high and she is still throwing up everything. I hope her stay is short, and she won't have to go back again till Baby E makes his/her entrance in to this world.
My mom got engaged this past weekend to her boyfriend Leo. I think they will most likely get married May 2012. Congrats to them!
No other news to report. No news is good new sometimes.
The in-laws came for a visit, it was really great for them to see our apartment. I hope by the next time they come we will either be moving to our new home, or at least further in the process. While they we here we went to the Air and Space Museum and the NRA Museum-Air and Space was interesting, NRA-Not at all.
My really close prego friend is back in the hospital her potassium is high, her blood pressure is high and she is still throwing up everything. I hope her stay is short, and she won't have to go back again till Baby E makes his/her entrance in to this world.
My mom got engaged this past weekend to her boyfriend Leo. I think they will most likely get married May 2012. Congrats to them!
No other news to report. No news is good new sometimes.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Can't Sleep
I am having a hard time sleeping tonight. Aside from the emotional struggles I have been having..I am having equal physical struggles. Since starting the meds I have had bad stomach issues..and headaches.
I have lots of wonderful people on my side. Sadly a few that I want to lean on...just arent here...and thats ok.
I have faith in this process....I am going to work on being positive. Ok enough midnight ramblings.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Bad as it gets?
This weekend was such a difficult time for me. I was in the middle of my period, I started Metformin again; and Clomid. It threw me over the edge. I was nasty, and emotional. I said things out of spite, my brain was somewhere else. I could feel this attitude coming on, but not even those I pre-warned were ready for how I acted. My husband is such a saint. During this time I cannot stress how much I need support, I need people to work with me. Please understand. I found a couple of helpful things to post, to represent how I feel.
The Infertility Patients Prayer
Lord, Give me Strength...
To keep my cool when another period starts.
To keep my chin up when a co-worker announces her pregnancy.
To have a good relationship with my friend in spite of her ability to conceive easily and not be jealous of her.
To endure my sister-in-law's comments about toilet training.
To keep from crying when I see children begging on the roads.
To forgive my doctor when he keeps me waiting for two hours for a consultation - and then can't remember my name.
To make the right decision about treatment.
To maintain a good relationship with my husband in spite of all this.
Infertility is...
Watching your husband playing with your friend's baby and wishing you could give him one of his own.
Telling nurses to please take blood from your right arm because the veins in your left arm are all gone because of all the IVs you've had.
Avoiding people you haven't seen for a long time because you don't want to hear the question, "Do you have any kids yet?".
Feeling very left out when your friends start comparing their pregnancy or childbirth experiences.
Feeling like the whole town is pregnant except for you.
Getting tired of people always expecting you to do things because "you don't have any kids to worry about".
Waking up in the middle of the night and wishing you could hear your baby crying.
Wishing you could give your parents grandchildren.
Wanting to fall apart if one other person says, "Why don't you adopt?" Easy, right?
Sometimes avoiding friends who are pregnant or with newborns because you just can't handle the situation at that moment.
ALSO...I found this really funny blog that I HOPE is going to keep me laughing. Here is a sample. If anyone reading this is having TTC issue I recommend this, its a good/funny read.
http://www.999reasonstolaugh.com/
#702 Wouldn’t it be Great to be Pregnant at the SAME time!
You’ve heard this line many times before. Wouldn’t it be just great if we got pregnant at the same time! Yes (sister-in-law, best friend, cousin Martha), it would be fantastic to be pregnant at the same time, and how would you like me to do that again?
As soon as your relative, friend, Facebook acquaintances, co-worker gets pregnant, she suddenly shares her fabulous idea that you should get pregnant at the same time. “It would be so much fun,” She squeals (while rubbing her pregnant belly). “We can take prenatal classes together and go on play dates. You better hurry up!” And it typically doesn’t matter if she knows about your infertility struggles or not. She will somehow say this anyways.
What a SUPER NEAT idea! Yes! Let’s be pregnant together! I will just head right home, take some fertility drugs, stick a transvaginal wand inside of me, remove embryos from my uterus, have a fertility lab technician wash my husband’s sperm, have some timed intercourse and then sit patiently for the next two weeks, waiting for my pregnancy test results.
Your sister-in-law, friend, co-worker and cousin Martha do have a good point. It would have been really nice to be pregnant at the same time. You have thought about this a million times before. You thought about it when dear old SIL was pregnant with baby #1, and then baby #2. You thought about it when your friend Betty-Sue was trying to conceive and got pregnant right away while you were still waiting. And no, you can’t just “hurry up and get pregnant.” If ‘hurry up’ means get pregnant within 3-10 years, you will definitely hurry it up. Next time you’re at the fertility doctor, you’ll nicely inquire if she could hurry up the ovulation, fertilization process. No problem-o!
During infertility, you can also enjoy some of the following lines (that seem to be universal):
Just relax and it will happen.
Why are you waiting so long?
Why don’t you just adopt?
I know someone (who knows someone) who adopted and then got pregnant.
Have you tried (insert bad advice from a relative, grandma Mildred, a friend or random stranger)?
Get drunk!
Go on vacation and it will just happen.
When the time is right, it will happen.
You’re thinking about it too much.
Stop trying.
You do agree it would be great to be pregnant at the same time as your friend but right now, you would happily settle to get pregnant at any time and any date.
The Infertility Patients Prayer
Lord, Give me Strength...
To keep my cool when another period starts.
To keep my chin up when a co-worker announces her pregnancy.
To have a good relationship with my friend in spite of her ability to conceive easily and not be jealous of her.
To endure my sister-in-law's comments about toilet training.
To keep from crying when I see children begging on the roads.
To forgive my doctor when he keeps me waiting for two hours for a consultation - and then can't remember my name.
To make the right decision about treatment.
To maintain a good relationship with my husband in spite of all this.
Infertility is...
Watching your husband playing with your friend's baby and wishing you could give him one of his own.
Telling nurses to please take blood from your right arm because the veins in your left arm are all gone because of all the IVs you've had.
Avoiding people you haven't seen for a long time because you don't want to hear the question, "Do you have any kids yet?".
Feeling very left out when your friends start comparing their pregnancy or childbirth experiences.
Feeling like the whole town is pregnant except for you.
Getting tired of people always expecting you to do things because "you don't have any kids to worry about".
Waking up in the middle of the night and wishing you could hear your baby crying.
Wishing you could give your parents grandchildren.
Wanting to fall apart if one other person says, "Why don't you adopt?" Easy, right?
Sometimes avoiding friends who are pregnant or with newborns because you just can't handle the situation at that moment.
ALSO...I found this really funny blog that I HOPE is going to keep me laughing. Here is a sample. If anyone reading this is having TTC issue I recommend this, its a good/funny read.
http://www.999reasonstolaugh.com/
#702 Wouldn’t it be Great to be Pregnant at the SAME time!
You’ve heard this line many times before. Wouldn’t it be just great if we got pregnant at the same time! Yes (sister-in-law, best friend, cousin Martha), it would be fantastic to be pregnant at the same time, and how would you like me to do that again?
As soon as your relative, friend, Facebook acquaintances, co-worker gets pregnant, she suddenly shares her fabulous idea that you should get pregnant at the same time. “It would be so much fun,” She squeals (while rubbing her pregnant belly). “We can take prenatal classes together and go on play dates. You better hurry up!” And it typically doesn’t matter if she knows about your infertility struggles or not. She will somehow say this anyways.
What a SUPER NEAT idea! Yes! Let’s be pregnant together! I will just head right home, take some fertility drugs, stick a transvaginal wand inside of me, remove embryos from my uterus, have a fertility lab technician wash my husband’s sperm, have some timed intercourse and then sit patiently for the next two weeks, waiting for my pregnancy test results.
Your sister-in-law, friend, co-worker and cousin Martha do have a good point. It would have been really nice to be pregnant at the same time. You have thought about this a million times before. You thought about it when dear old SIL was pregnant with baby #1, and then baby #2. You thought about it when your friend Betty-Sue was trying to conceive and got pregnant right away while you were still waiting. And no, you can’t just “hurry up and get pregnant.” If ‘hurry up’ means get pregnant within 3-10 years, you will definitely hurry it up. Next time you’re at the fertility doctor, you’ll nicely inquire if she could hurry up the ovulation, fertilization process. No problem-o!
During infertility, you can also enjoy some of the following lines (that seem to be universal):
Just relax and it will happen.
Why are you waiting so long?
Why don’t you just adopt?
I know someone (who knows someone) who adopted and then got pregnant.
Have you tried (insert bad advice from a relative, grandma Mildred, a friend or random stranger)?
Get drunk!
Go on vacation and it will just happen.
When the time is right, it will happen.
You’re thinking about it too much.
Stop trying.
You do agree it would be great to be pregnant at the same time as your friend but right now, you would happily settle to get pregnant at any time and any date.
Friday, July 22, 2011
The Final Countdown
This is actually a fun/happy/exciting countdown. This isn't the bad Final Countdown...nothing like the really bad song The Final Countdown by Europe that my husband uses for his alarm clock ringtone in the morning.
Only two more days after today I will take my first clomid pill, and kick off our new and improved : ) cycle.
Only two more days after today I will take my first clomid pill, and kick off our new and improved : ) cycle.
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