Maybe PCOS, Maybe Not.

I went and met with Dr. Demitina with Dominion Fertility. He was AMAZING. I highly recommend them. We talked over all of our history, and he said "you have been ignored long enough, we are going to change that". For once, finally someone listens. He had me do a sonogram while I was at the appointment. Which ended up being totally fine. He showed me my overies, my uterus, my lining, my eggs....he said I had very health overies....but then says you have pco-looking overies. Ok well PCOS is bad, and if I have PCO-looking overies that's bad right? He said no. OK? Once I got dressed he came back in, and told me the next steps.
I have to go get blood taken to check hormones, std's, and genetic issues. Also, Aeron has to do another Seman Anyalis. Dr. D seemed slightly concerned about his last test. We go back again Nov 18 to go over the test results and see what the course of action will be. For once, I have hope. Hormones are a lot easier to correct, then physical issues. In the meantime we are still doing weight watchers, I am still taking Metformin and Clomid. Hopefully we just become pregnant. Please send prayers our way!!!

News, Updates, Changes, and Support

My very good friend Jessica had her babies last night, yes two little boys. They were a healthy weight for being born at 35weeks, and so cute! Baby A, Joshua was 6lbs 1 oz...and Baby B, Matthew was 6lbs 13 oz. They are both very healthy, and do not need much assistance. Both are in the NICU which was a dfferent experience to go visit them. I am thankful I was able to spend a little time with them. As we were leaving the hospital in the car pulling out of the birthing center, I couldn't help but ask Aeron "Do you think this will ever be us"? He always used to say with out a doubt, it will be us at the right time. Now however, he is starting to realize that its possible it won't be us. He has now changed his anwser to "I hope so".

This week is a really busy one. I am still cleaning on Thursday nights, and working Sat and Sunday at the Bridal Shop. Friday night, while Aeron bowls I will be visiting with Jess and the babies. Saturday I work 10-6; then we are going to the Zac Brown Band concert. Sunday we are going to the Redskins vs Eagles game. So fun filled days for sure. Just me and my hubbs.

Next week we have a consultation with Dominion Fertility. Hopefully we will finally get anwsers. I just want to know what we are up against. I also started going to a support group on the first Tuesday of every month called RESOLVE. Aeron had to really push me to go, but I am so glad I did. Please look at their website, it gives lots of interesting info. http://www.resolve.org

I will update after our appointment : ) Please send prayers our way.

Cycle #2

Ok-I just picked up my prescription for my Metformin and Clomid. While I was there I looked through the baby section while I waited for the prescription. I bought a onesie....on clearance of course. It says "Daddy says I can't date until 25" ha ha too cute.

This month we are trying preseed as well.

Tomorrow is day 5 of my cycle which means it's the start of Clomid days 5-9. BEWARE!

Please say a prayer for us, please let it be our month.

Fair-Weather Friend

A friend who is only a friend when circumstances are pleasant or profitable. At the first sign of trouble, these capricious, disloyal friends will drop their relationship with you.

Usually a good friend to begin with that eventually takes advantage of a true friend and does not maintain the SAME loyalty and respect. Without an explation why, a fair weather friend may abandon a friendship altogether for superficial reasons or changes in moral beliefs without a care for nurturing fair dicussion. The exception is when that person needs something, they know they can still count on an "all weather friend"

This describes to a "t" what I am experiencing from my two closest friends. I feel very betrayed, alone, and just sad. It's ok though, I knew that they wouldn't understand me working 7 days a week, and what my goals are in doing so. But I didn't exspect for it to take a turn like this. The only thing I can do is stand up for myself, stay stong, and know that all the work I am putting in now will get me where I want to be.

Day 27

Have I mentioned how much I hate this wait? I don't think I got pregnant this month, so if I didn't can we just move on? This next cycle we are going to use pre-seed (for the sake of the parentals reading I will spare the details-if your interested google it). Also we will be going trying ovulation prediction tests. For some reason even when my Dr. has confirmed ovulation the tests never work for me. But I am willing to try again. In addition, I am going to make an appointment at Dominion Fertility to see what my insurance covers.

In other news. My best friend finds out what she is having in a few weeks, I am so excited to know!

I got a part-time job at a Bridal Store on the weekends. It's a lot that I am taking on but it will be worth it when I am in my new home. This week we have a meeting with another lender to talk about the VHDA loan.

The Waiting Game

Ok-So I've started the dreaded two week wait to see if I am pregnant. I don't think this month is it, but I am excited of the possibility and starting everything again next month.

The in-laws came for a visit, it was really great for them to see our apartment. I hope by the next time they come we will either be moving to our new home, or at least further in the process. While they we here we went to the Air and Space Museum and the NRA Museum-Air and Space was interesting, NRA-Not at all.

My really close prego friend is back in the hospital her potassium is high, her blood pressure is high and she is still throwing up everything. I hope her stay is short, and she won't have to go back again till Baby E makes his/her entrance in to this world.

My mom got engaged this past weekend to her boyfriend Leo. I think they will most likely get married May 2012. Congrats to them!

No other news to report. No news is good new sometimes.

Can't Sleep

I am having a hard time sleeping tonight. Aside from the emotional struggles I have been having..I am having equal physical struggles. Since starting the meds I have had bad stomach issues..and headaches.

I have lots of wonderful people on my side. Sadly a few that I want to lean on...just arent here...and thats ok.

I have faith in this process....I am going to work on being positive. Ok enough midnight ramblings.